Steadfast

I miss you so fucking much and yet I don't even know if I ever really spoke with you at all., who was I really talking to. Something inside me believes that at first it was you that I spoke with but then a lil voice comes and whispers that its what I want to believe. I know it sounds crazy and impossible but I don't feel confused about how I still feel about you. I love you so damn much and I need to understand it.

I was able to free one hand and I pulled and pulled at the gauze that was wrapped and overlapped round my eyes till I could see again but things are still a blur. I am on my knees praying for you everyday, you are always in my heart, my mind, my sights but most importantly you are always with me. God be with you and any others that are there with you wherever there is. I know I sound crazy but I really don't care, I love you and your beauty and all that you and I shared. You were so kind to me, you came into my life and saved me from myself and then you mysteriously vanished and left me here all alone. I am here steadfast in my love and prayers for you, holding on I wait for you. I stay here waiting only for you Wednesday, my sweet true love.